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  • I need to vent

     Neo updated 1 year, 2 months ago 9 Members · 12 Posts
  • Kandicaine

    July 13, 2021 at 3:55 pm

    I’m not looking for pity, I just need to vent and see if anyone else is going through the same thing I am.

    My life is screwed, it’s always been screwed, ive lived in poverty my entire life and every time I almost get out of it I’m kicked back down.

    I’ve been in AMC since mid May. I get about $3500/month right now in EI and Disability supports. The housing market is going crazy, Ive basically become homeless – partly by choice.

    Back in February my rental apartment flooded and I lost it. It was my pride and joy, and I’d hoped to maybe buy it sometime in the future.

    Since then I’ve been floating between my moms house and my cousins and friends because there’s no rentals available. People either refuse to rent to people on disability or you miss out because there are thousands of people looking for rentals. In the last six months I’ve only had 5 viewings and they’ve all fallen through.

    The price of rents have gone up to nearly 70% of my available money, investment groups are buying up all the housing and jacking the prices up and I refuse to spend every single dollar I have on housing just so some asshole can get a free house they bought with money they don’t have in a large corporate investment group that’s buying all the property and jacking the prices

    I’m honestly at the point of killing myself and the only thing stopping me is the shares Im holding and the conviction I have in this stock.

    Even if I managed to put in $10000, that’s nothing. A couple months rent – a vacation maybe. It’s just not enough money and there’s no way to get any more and everything keeps going up and up and all I can do is keep buying more shares on the hope that it will end this all. I just don’t know what to do anymore. It’s going insane out here. People are going homeless all over because they can’t afford the rentals anymore. It’s impossible to save for a down payment.

    I haven’t even bought myself clothes in the last 6 months. They’re all rags. All I can do is keep buying more shares.

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  • Joey193

    July 13, 2021 at 6:54 pm

    My dear brother or sister whatever gender you are I just want you to know I been there. We may not know eachother other but I genuinly care for your well being. I care because I know exactly where you’re coming from I also lived in poverty for most of my life. I was born and raised in Washington Heights in NYC. I remember as a child sometimes waking up crying because of stomach cramps from not eating because we had no food but my middle brother would wake up with me and always found a can of beans which he would cook for us to eat so I can be able to go back to sleep. From a child to a young man this was the case I had to struggle to make ends meet for me and my family. I mean I took to the streets at 11 or 12 not understanding the seveirity of what I was getting involved with. At one point a close friend who I grew up with who I consider my brother got me a pretty decent job so I was able to leave that life behind me. I eventually got custody of my son that I had when I was 17. A few years into that job we had a fire in our apartment and lost everything so I took my savings which I was gonna use to move out and I spent it helping my mother me and my son get everything back in order. After that I had a horrible accedent where I was electracuted and blown off a ladder. I didn’t qualify for SSI or SSD because I spent so many years working off the books, not enough work history they said and I was born here I worked on and off but always ended up off the books to make enough money to help my family. I was living off of $400 and change after my accident thats what workers comp gave me temporarily. Eventually I lost my job because I couldn’t work and the checks stopped coming I even tried to sue but no one would take the case it all had to be done by workers comp. It took six years for them to ok all the surgeries I needed. They had me on all types of medication which made things worst. I was so bad that I did attempt to kill my self. Before hand I told God I was ready to go but that if by some miricle I was able to make it out alive I swore to get all the help I could to get better but I was tired of the physical emotional and mental pain I was in. I sufferd most of my life and for a brief moment I thought I was gonna be ok but after that accendent I was back to square one. The day of I was actually dead when the ambulance arrived but they where able to bring me back. After that I was so messed up I moved into a shelter so my mother and son didn’t have to see me in the condition I was in. Things got way worst before they got better I was shot when I went to visit my mother and son on a mothers day. I was defending myself from a group of guys I got into a fight with. The cowards must have got tired before me because they decided to shoot me. Things didn’t end there fam I had another incedent by the shelter weeks after getting shot. I got into a knife fight but luckily we both came out ok nothing that couldn’t be fixed, but that guy went looking for me with two other guys at the shelter so they kicked me out. My brother who got me the job let me stay with him a few days. During all this I did keep my promise and I was getting help before all this since I got out the hospital after my suicide attempt but it just wasn’t the help I really needed the program that was helping me couldn’t place me in a live in program I was trying to get in to, to help me get my life straight, but no because I didn’t qualify. Then I had to leave the shelter and stay at my brothers house. But I didn’t give up I went back to the program explained how I got shot and thrown out of the shelter and I really had no where to go at all but they still gave me some bs and they couldn’t help me. So I on my own contacted the place I knew that could help but I supposedly didn’t qualify for. I explained to them what I been through and I told them I would surely die at the rate things where going. They then explained to me what I had to do to get in. I did what they explained I needed to be done in order to get the help and at that point they excpted me to go. Fam I spent almost a year there came out way better moved back with my mom and son and now three years later my mom was able to buy a house in Florida which we are all living in now. Things still ain’t easy I was able to get some money when I got home which I put in the stock market and it went well last year but none of this money is real life changing money lets be real to really change your entire life these days it takes a whole lot. I been able to help my mom a bit but Im now running out of living cash this year in the market its been going horrible and I owe a lot of money with the IRS State tax and the move the things I had to help my mom with Im running out of money and what’s left in the market I know I can’t touch because its not life changing yet. Im in on AMC and I got in kinda late so I have some big negative numbers and I will soon run out of living cash. But I won’t give up Im gonna keep on keeping on. Im not letting go of my AMC shares and Im not touching that cash. I suffer from crazy pain but if I have to go to work that’s what I’ll do. I know where I want to work I applied to some places but they didn’t take me probably because of the large gap I have in my work history. Listen man killing yourself is not the answer keep doing what you can do not give up I realized how stupid and cowardness it was of me to try and off my self that’s the easy way out bro/sis besides I imagine all the people I would have hurt also. You got to be strong nothing worth fighting for ever comes easy especially when your fighting for your life or your livelyhood. Do not give up do not kill yourself its really not with it. If your alive you can always fix your problems and when your better you can even help those you love if they ever fall into hardship but if you’re dead you can’t do shit not for yourself and not for anyone death is finale. Death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to talk hit me up I’ll give you my email and we can take it from there. You never know two heads are better than one you are not alone. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to me I been there and I am highly experienced in all that shit and more. I don’t like putting my business out there but if its gonna keep you from making such a grave mistake then so be it I don’t give a f*** what anyone thinks.

  • Troy Gurley

    July 13, 2021 at 7:17 pm

    Doing some research on what’s going on helps me not feel so at a loss. To understand they are manipulating the market to inspire fear and insecurity in positions through High frequency Trading algorithms That are way over my head, Tells me one thing. They are afraid of us not being afraid to hold our positions. Why are they afraid? Because as long as we hold we win. They will loose. But I also would advice against placing all of your hard earned money into one pot. Diversify and build a portfolio with Great penny stocks or regular stocks That you can see making real progress in changing other peoples lives. The stock market is no lottery and it take real effort to understand how to invest. Learn what day trading is compared to swing trading. The difference in Long and short trades. Knowledge is power, Understanding why the market is behaving why it is will give you the ability to confidently trade, make gains and accept there will be some losses every now and then. But with diversification you can and will see a difference in your trading power. Am I worried about AMC? No, Honestly it is a calculated risk and we have already seen this very same scenario play out with GME. Even AI investing machines are making the same move on AMC that we are making as apes. making money in the stock market is a game between the patient and the impatient.

  • CrayonMuncher

    July 14, 2021 at 10:17 am

    @Kandicaine I’m sorry to hear that you have gone through so many struggles. Not sure if you are just venting or really feel like you might hurt yourself, but either way, please reach out to friends or family for some kind of help or support if you can. If possible, think about professional help as well. Mental health is just as important as physical health and there is nothing wrong with asking for help.

    Please take care of yourself first. If you need to buy food and have shelter, that will always come before the stock market. If you already have shares, that’s great and I hope they go up and give you great returns, but please don’t neglect yourself.

    Right now AMC/GME are going through some crazy times so please don’t let it affect you to the point where you harm yourself. If it helps, just know we are all going through the same craziness as you and we all want it to get better as soon as possible.

    If you just needed to vent, that’s cool, but if you feel you might hurt yourself, please find something that gives you hope and purpose and focus on it and if you have good people you can surround yourself with, reach out to them and spend time with them. You are more valuable than you know.

  • robodrill

    July 14, 2021 at 10:58 am

    You have the spirit this nation was built upon. You inspire us all, and we need your inspiration.

    I too was raised in poverty. I managed to get out of it through the military, and by constant sacrifice and seemingly endless challenges.

    You remind me of those pioneers who had nothing and no prospects. They threw whatever meager belongings they had into a wagon, and headed west not knowing what they would find. They risked everything, including their own lives and the lives of their children to invest in themselves. You have thrown everything into this journey.

    Some of them stopped in the middle of the great grassy plain and built their house out of the only material at hand: sod. They ate whatever would grow, mainly roots like turnips and rutabagas. Life was abject misery for years. You are in their shoes right now.

    Then it all paid off. They had their own land, free and clear of the land-lords of the cities they left. They had more than they could eat and their children went to school.

    They snatched prosperity right out of the jaws of desperation. They all had stories of their great trek. Their stories inspired others. I will love to hear from you when we reach the moon.

    There is no adventure without adversity. There is no easy way to pull yourself by your own bootstraps. But you are doing it. Whatever you are faced with; you are dealing with it and surviving one more day.

    Losing you would be a loss to all of us. We are holding on for many reasons. One of those reasons is to hear each other’s stories about what we went through to get to the moon.

    We have earned the right to hear the story of your great trek, and we want to hear it.

    You are the very fiber of a pioneer. You are the essence of a hero. Hold on each day. do not quit. We all need your inspiration to carry us to the moon.


    • Kandicaine

      July 14, 2021 at 6:25 pm

      Thank you so much bro this is exactly what I needed to hear and thank you everyone else also, I’m doing a lot better today and I’m not going to do anything stupid so please don’t be worried. ❤️

      • CrayonMuncher

        July 14, 2021 at 6:41 pm

        Good to hear man! Just take it one day at a time and reach out to the people out here in this community when you have those bad days. 💪

      • Joey193

        July 15, 2021 at 12:55 am

        Yeah bro great to hear that your feeling better.

      • StockinAF

        July 15, 2021 at 11:45 am

        Glad to hear you are doing better, the economy sucks right now for so many and rentals are insane.. I live in a state right now where people are selling their million dollar homes and moving to my state (Idaho) and have increased the housing prices astronomically… no native Idahoan making and average wage could buy or rent a home in the current market… I see you, I have vowed when I am able to buy another home my current home will go to below market value for rental to a native family who needs it… because honestly I want to help someone.. I look forward to this squeeze so I can give back. If ever you need to vent on rough days… there are those of us here to listen!

  • Anonymous

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    July 14, 2021 at 8:01 pm

    a good way to vent is to buy more. and hold more.

  • LucyDa1nOnly

    July 15, 2021 at 7:38 am

    I could add to the stories already given. However I will share a song that I always run back to when I have wicked thoughts of offing myself. GOOD CHARLOTTE’S Hold On. I have battled with suicide since my youth. All I can say is someone prayed for me and I am still here. 2 beautiful children and 1 terrible marriage to show for it. I hold for my family and I hold for my AMC family. This is our come up. Money don’t fix everything. It just makes some of life’s bs manageable. Love you and praying for you.

  • Neo

    July 15, 2021 at 6:08 pm

    Wow…I feel you. I had to move into my brother’s camper in his driveway because I couldn’t live with a drug addict anymore. FYI…if you try to give an addict a place to stay to get them off the streets, they’ll basically ruin your life. Lesson learned. Anyway big hugs to you. You’re not alone.

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